While as a writer I understand how difficult it is to keep going when we're 'torturing' our characters, I implore you to keep going. LKH is always talking about how she struggles with it, and you've captured the characters so incredibly well, it is no wonder that you would o that same. I just read the entire thing for the first time in only two sittings (sleep did become necessary) and it is a very moving, compelling and oftentimes poiniant work. Keep with the writing, know that when you get to the part where you can sooth them, that you will feel so much more complete.

Take care,
Galen