Don't force the smut if you don't wanna. Really, readers can tell when you're doing it just because it's what you were told looked good in the summery & I don't know about others but for me I'm inundated with smut from my fandoms & gen or non sex ship/slash is good.
Plus it's good to know that someone else has the same issues. I can write very metaphysicical sex (it gets real weird too) but anything graphic tends to escape me if it's not part of the plot & just kinda pwp-ish.