AB drabble -- Body

[mhalachai]

Title: Body
Fandom: Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter (master list here)
Characters: Anita
Prompt: 005 -- Outside
Word Count: 100
Rating: PG
Note: Warning for off-screen character death. This is a songfic (*gasp*) based on Body by The Servant. Crossposted on abvh100

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When you don't know what you want
You end up finding that you haunt your own life

I'm drifting.

I tried to pay attention. But one day Bert told me they thought I should take a break, because of what happened. I didn’t argue. Should I have argued?

Nathaniel was so careful of me. They all were, even Jean-Claude.

I wonder if he’s sorry Micah's dead.

You're the daylight ghost that creeps
You're the empty city streets

Micah's dead. Because I wasn't fast enough to save him. I'm not sure what to do now.

All I want is him back.

Comments

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Yes, first with the killing. But I don't know if she could properly grieve if it was her fault. With the wereleopards, she would need to be "in charge," but if she let Micah die, then how can she lead anyone? She would need to be strong, and strong means not grieving. Strong means suppressing. In the end, strong means going on until you collapse under the weight of it all.