Round VII of Ficlette Fiasco II -- one AB ficlette

[mhalachai]

An Anita ficlette for the Ficlette Fiasco II. (master list found here)


Title: Sometimes
Characters: Anita
Disclaimer: All Anita Blake characters belong to Laurell K. Hamilton. I am only borrowing them for a short while and am receiving nothing.
Rating: Very PG
Author's Note: For an anonymous individual. S/He wanted something about Anita's fiance (you know the one) coming to town to do some business, but I wanted to write an intorspective piece instead. Maybe I'll write that business one day ;)

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I think about him sometimes, still. My fiance from college, with his blond hair and soft hands. He'd been all I thought I wanted then. Something safe. Like that everyone else had.

When his mother freaked on finding out my mother was Mexican, and he dumped me, I thought I was broken, as if I'd never be happy again. I'd been so close to the dream or a white picket fence, two kids, only to have it ruined by who I was.

It was only years later that I realized it hadn't been what I wanted at all. Sure, it might look good on paper, and it was a hell of a good excuse when Jason or Jean-Claude or anyone started poking at my relationship issues, but it was impossible. He wouldn't have been able to deal with my job, with my raising zombies, or with the police work. He'd have asked me to stop, then he'd have demanded I stop. I can't stop raising the dead or using my abilities to try and save lives. It's not who I am. It's not what I am.

Now, I wake up pressed between Micah and Nathaniel, their naked bodies keeping me warm on even the coldest of nights. I go on dates with Asher and Jean-Claude, them enjoying each other as much as they do me. My wereleopards love coming over to the house and watching bad movies with me. Even Richard and I have come to some sort of a truce, one that keeps him in my bed more often than not.

Looking back on that college trauma, I know now it was for the best. If I'd gotten married back then, I'd never have met Jean-Claude, or Richard, or any of my guys. I have a family now, and I never knew I wanted it until I got it.

...fin

Comments

[thymidinekinase.livejournal.com]

This is true-to-voice for those rare times Anita is calm about her romantic life. It's nice when she gets sensible ... just so rare.

[(Anonymous)]

I really enjoyed reading this. Very rare to read about Anita being happy with the present.

E.A.V.

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Thank you. My interpretation is that at the end of Incubus Dreams is that Anita is finally beginning to be happy with what she has. This is an outgrowth of that :)

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

Very nice- I love when you write Anita's inner thoughts, particularly since she seems so...reasonable here. It's lovely to see and entirely within character for her.

[catherinecookmn.livejournal.com]

Hey, even Anita has to turn off the CAPS LOCK every so often!

This is lovely. Absolutely lovely. And oh so true.

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Well, she's how old now? Time for our sweet delicate flower *cough* to grow up a bit. I don't think we'll ever see her get too sensible, though. Where would be the fun in that?

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Hey, we all love capslock Anita. Just like capslock Harry (It's really chilling, from an Inevitable standpoint, how alike those two are. Which reminds me, I have a confrontation to write :P)

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

There are times, when she's at home in her own skin, that she's reasonable. She has been fighting it for so long (13 books now?) that it's a blessed relief, in my mind, to see her becoming at home with her life as it is, not what it might have been.

And thanks for your kind words :)

[catherinecookmn.livejournal.com]

(It's really chilling, from an Inevitable standpoint, how alike those two are.

A-yeppers. Both alphas, both with sucky childhoods, both with powers that make them outcasts from society at large, both with blind spots big enough to steer an oil tanker through, and both with large resevoirs of passion and caring for each other that they dare not express -- which of course makes them even angrier with each other.

Which reminds me, I have a confrontation to write :P)

Oh, goody! I just might have to write a Nathaniel/Snape vignette just for you. (I've got one banging around in my brain, and it wants to get committed to electrons, if not paper.)

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Both alphas, both with sucky childhoods, both with powers that make them outcasts from society at large, both with blind spots big enough to steer an oil tanker through, and both with large resevoirs of passion and caring for each other that they dare not express -- which of course makes them even angrier with each other.

Exactly. Regarding that last bit, Anita's got this stupid and not even fully formed idea (stemming from Nathaniel, no doubt) that she can't care for Harry because it might turn into what she has with Nathaniel (which started out in somewhat the same way, but took a diffrent track because it's Nathaniel). Harry thinks he can't care for anyone, let along Anita, because he's not long for this world, all his friends get hurt, etc.... It should only take them six years or so to sort this crap all out.

Nathaniel/Snape vignette

*mind boggles* I;m ever so curious as to how this would turn out! Let me know :P

[(Anonymous)]

{that Anita is finally beginning to be happy with what she has.}

I agree. but Incubus Dreams just ended, so I haven't read about it much. yet.

E.A.V.