Ask Me Anything December #3
Dec. 9th, 2018 11:48 amFor the Ask Me Anything December meme - Day #3
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jjhunter : What do you carry with you?
Literal answer: Phone, headphones, chapstick, $40 in cash, a bookstore loyalty card, and my house keys
Philosophical answer: Loneliness. I have a hard time understanding social interaction and people really mean in any given social setting. I have a hard time making friends; I get the social signals all wrong and am either too clingy or too aloof, and it ends up with me sitting by myself too tired to try again.
And having said that in all its depressing glory, I try not to let that define me. I get up, go to work, perform all the obligatory social interactions (how was your weekend? Any holiday plans? Etc.) and live my life.
And and, I’m ok with alone. Lonely hurts sometimes, but alone is within my control. Alone is, I can go out and see people and then leave those people and be home and knowing exactly what’s in my personal space and be in control of my own destiny.
Also I carry with me the lingering repercussions of childhood poverty and low socio-economic expectations, but I’m saving that particular topic for my autobiography.
Today’s question comes from
jjhunter : What do you carry with you?Literal answer: Phone, headphones, chapstick, $40 in cash, a bookstore loyalty card, and my house keys
Philosophical answer: Loneliness. I have a hard time understanding social interaction and people really mean in any given social setting. I have a hard time making friends; I get the social signals all wrong and am either too clingy or too aloof, and it ends up with me sitting by myself too tired to try again.
And having said that in all its depressing glory, I try not to let that define me. I get up, go to work, perform all the obligatory social interactions (how was your weekend? Any holiday plans? Etc.) and live my life.
And and, I’m ok with alone. Lonely hurts sometimes, but alone is within my control. Alone is, I can go out and see people and then leave those people and be home and knowing exactly what’s in my personal space and be in control of my own destiny.
Also I carry with me the lingering repercussions of childhood poverty and low socio-economic expectations, but I’m saving that particular topic for my autobiography.