AB drabble -- Body

[mhalachai]

Title: Body
Fandom: Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter (master list here)
Characters: Anita
Prompt: 005 -- Outside
Word Count: 100
Rating: PG
Note: Warning for off-screen character death. This is a songfic (*gasp*) based on Body by The Servant. Crossposted on abvh100

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When you don't know what you want
You end up finding that you haunt your own life

I'm drifting.

I tried to pay attention. But one day Bert told me they thought I should take a break, because of what happened. I didn’t argue. Should I have argued?

Nathaniel was so careful of me. They all were, even Jean-Claude.

I wonder if he’s sorry Micah's dead.

You're the daylight ghost that creeps
You're the empty city streets

Micah's dead. Because I wasn't fast enough to save him. I'm not sure what to do now.

All I want is him back.

Comments

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

I think that Micah's gotten himself inside her life to the point where she would hit very hard with his death, especially if she viewed it as her fault. And as I wrote, or at least tried to get across, she'd try and suppress, but I don't think she could pull it off. She'd try and do everything she used to, but I think she'd try and shove it all down until she totally collpased.

[eavling.livejournal.com]

{{And as I wrote, or at least tried to get across, she'd try and suppress, but I don't think she could pull it off.}}

Is that the line, 'I tried to pay attention.'?

That doesn't read to me that she tried to suppress her feelings. Well, maybe vaguely. It seems more as though she simply failed to pay attention that day that Bert said go home. But I agree, if Anita were to have a complete breakdown, what you describe here is a pre~~ty darn good description. You even added that line of doubting Jean-Claude...which I think is very in character for Anitia.

[catherinecookmn.livejournal.com]

And there's always this: We often tend to repeat our parents' mistakes, even if we think we're rejecting them. Anita may at an unconscious level think that falling apart is OK, because it's what she learned from her father as a child -- and lessons learned before puberty are very tough to unlearn.