AB Drabble: My Hands

[mhalachai]

Anyone out there willing to talk to me for a bit about Lord of the Rings back-history, mainly with regards to the Silmarillion? It'll be tomorrow, mainly, by email. Comment if you're a Silmarillion expert or something :)

K, time for dark!fic

My Hands
An Anita Blake fanfiction drabble by mhalachaiswords

Summary: Anita dreams
Disclaimer: The Anita Blake universe belongs to Laurell K. Hamilton. I'm only borrowing and will return them at the end of the fic.
Rating: PG
Characters: Anita
Word count: 100
fanfic100 Prompt: 099 -- Writer's Choice (Dreams)
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There is blood on the walls when I dream.

I used to believe dreams didn't mean anything. That was before vampires haunted me day and night, with their quiet demands and soulless curiosity and their taking, always taking.

Back before I had blood on my hands.

I don't tell anyone about what I dream. There is blood on the walls when I dream, blood on my hands, and the bodies of everyone I care about broken at my feet. Broken and dead, and I couldn't stop it.

I couldn't stop myself.

There is blood on my hands when I dream.

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Comments

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

I'm not an expert, but I have read it through more than once :)

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Excellent. Can I email you something, then? Email me at mhalachai at gmail.com if you're up to a quick beta.

[kira-snugz.livejournal.com]

oh thats lovely and haunting.

[windmiran.livejournal.com]

I'm well-known by my long-suffering friends to be absolutely obsessed with the LOTR backstory. I'd love to fill in questions you have. I almost got my best friend to write her masters thesis on Eowyn the White Lady and the other female characters like the OTHER White Lady Aredhel, just by babbling about girl power and Tolkien too much.
So, yeah. Got all twelve Histories of Middle-Earth pining away on my bookshelf, waiting to be read again.

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Excellent. I will take you up on this. I'm going to email what I have to your hotmail account.

(12 histories. Gah. Isn't one enough?)

[sabriel-0405.livejournal.com]

Practically perfect. As always.

[practical-puss.livejournal.com]

Ah. I :heart: you.

[silvanlumiere.livejournal.com]

I couldn't stop myself.

... These words had me shivering. Lovely piece =)

[ansku]

Very nice :)

And about Silmarillion - I'm not an expert, but I've read it a few times, even if the last time was a while ago, and I have it at hand if needed. Of course I have this slight language problem: the book is in English but I don't understand all the words (and my dictionary don't recognize them all either) and I don't have the Finnish copy at hand at the moment to check the 'official' translations.

[catherinecookmn.livejournal.com]

I'd make a tampon joke, but That Would Be Wrong. :-)

Seriously, though: That's chilling.

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

*shudder*

Poor Anita. Somehow, you always manage to make her more human than she is in the books, and for that I appreciate it.

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Somehow, you always manage to make her more human than she is in the books

I think we're left with so many dangling ends, that it's important for things like this, to tie togther what we see (her fear of becoming a monster, of losing everyone, of all sorts of stuff). Plus I'm obsessed with this angle of her personality in the days leading up to the end of Inevitable (but not because I plan to have her slaughter everyone... it's just a thing I need to work through).

Have you read DM yet? I forget...

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

I have read DM, but not the latest of Inevitable. Hopefully I'll be able to before I leave for Korea.

Dreams

[thymidinekinase.livejournal.com]

I prefer your longer-length work, but I think you've hit an important truth with this piece. Anita most fears becoming one of the monsters and she also fears losing the relationships she's built, so such nightmares are a very plausible expression of her mental state. Also, the repeat of the two key words (blood and dreams) sets up an almost poetic resonance, such as one might see in the sestina poetic form (no rhyme, but the illusion of rhyme through forced repetition). Nice.

Re: Dreams

[mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com]

Anita most fears becoming one of the monsters

Yes, and it's a point that's either being glossed over in recent books, or used as a wanky whiny point. IMO, it's not being dealt with the way it should: Anita's the most powerful necomancer in a thousand years. She's already a little unstable, and has no qualms about acting as judge and executioner.

and she also fears losing the relationships she's built
Her entire life seems built upon this theme. Instead of dealing with it, she ignores and pushes it back, waiting for history to repeat itself.

I've been saying it for a while, but the girl needs therapy like no one's business.

When I wrote this, I was in a strangely lyrical mood. Now, all I need to do is work past Anita's "issues" from DM and I'm set.

[necromancer5.livejournal.com]

their taking, always taking. (sigh) I just love your stuff. Thanks.

[ligeia-bm.livejournal.com]

Wow! Very strong, very compelling stuff.