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Inevitable Thirty-four: Too Many Questions is up!

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Inevitable Thirty-four: Too Many Questions
by Mhalachai
Note: Happy birthday, [livejournal.com profile] emeraldswan! When I heard it was your birthday, I decided that another instalment of Inevitable was in order to celebrate :) If you are interested in a timeline of this story (i.e. what chapters happen on what days), please click here to visit my live journal entry on the topic.

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Jean-Claude stared at me. "What did you say, ma petite?"

"Why is this so hard to understand?" I asked. "I told you that someone needs to take Harry back to England, and that someone may as well be me."

Jean-Claude took a step back. "You do not know what you are saying," he said in his oh-so-reasonable voice, the one that usually made me want to scream.

"Why is this just a big deal?" I demanded. I looked across my bedroom at Micah, perched on the bed. He shook his head. He didn't know what had set Jean-Claude off any more than I did.

"Is it because of what happened tonight, with the ghouls?" Nathaniel asked, lying on his stomach on the bed beside Micah.

"No, that's not it," I said immediately. "I thought you said Harry did well with that, Jean-Claude."

"I did," Jean-Claude said patiently. "But what you are asking has nothing to do with Harry. It has to do with you, ma petite."

I didn't often feel out of my depth with Jean-Claude, but this was one of those times. I really didn't understand what he was talking about. "Would you please cut the crap and explain this to me?"

"Fine." Jean-Claude drew in an unnecessary breath. "You must understand, ma petite, that you, my human servant, cannot just wander into another vampire's city without introduction."

"But I'm not going as your human servant, I'll be going as me." My hands were on my hips as I faced Jean-Claude. I hated vampire politics, and this was starting to sound like more of the same.

"It does not matter," Jean-Claude continued. "Do you remember what happened in Tennessee, with Colin?"

Colin had been the Master of the City in a tiny Tennessee town. The town, where Richard had done the research for his thesis on trolls, had also been home to a werewolf pack. I'd had to go bail Richard out of jail on a trumped-up rape charge, and after a good deal of excitement, ended up killing Colin's human servant. He had died because of it.

"I didn't mean to kill him, going in," I pointed out.

Jean-Claude shook his head. "Maybe, if I had months to arrange it, I could guarantee your safe passage to London. The new Master is not, how do you say, a fan of mine."

I narrowed my eyes. Jean-Claude's grasp of the English language was better than that. Either he was trying to deflect me, or this was upsetting him more than he wanted me to know.

"It does not even make sense to me, why you wish to be the one to return Harry to England," Jean-Claude continued. "You have never left this country before."

"What does that matter?" I asked defensively. "Harry can't just fly back on his own, what if something happens? It's going to be a day or two after the full moon. Besides, if those Death Eater freaks try anything, he may need some help." I paused, looking closer at Jean-Claude. "Is there something you're not telling me about London?"

Jean-Claude fell silent. I paced the room, trying to walk off some of the nervous energy still inside me after the battle with the ghouls earlier that night. The near-miss hadn't sunk in quite yet. My brain was still trying to process why ghouls had attacked two healthy humans. They didn't do that unless something was controlling them, and I didn't know of anything in town that could order ghouls around.

"What aren't you telling Anita?" Micah asked.

The look that Jean-Claude gave Micah wasn't entirely friendly. "You will recall, ma petite, that I told you the Vampire Council once killed necromancers on sight?"

"Yes," I said. "But the Council is in France, right? Not England."

"But the sentiment remains, especially among the older vampires," Jean-Claude said. "Christoff is one such vampire."

"But... he wouldn't kill me. Right?" I said. The blank expression on Jean-Claude's face chilled me more than any words would have. He didn't want me to know what he was thinking.

"I do not know." Jean-Claude crossed the room to stand in front of me, so close that the cloth of his shirt brushed against my sleeve. I stared at his chest until he cupped my face in his hands and raised my head. The look in his blue eyes was so haunted, so despairing, that I felt a lump form in my throat. "But I will not risk any harm coming to you, ma petite. Not for anything."

He kissed me, lips soft as feathers against mine. As his arms went around my shoulders, I felt warmth at my back. Nathaniel pressed against me, burying his face in the crook of my shoulder, his breath hot against my skin.

Jean-Claude pulled back from the gentle kiss, but still held me close. Slowly, I let myself relax a little, let those feelings I'd been holding inside of me come out in a sigh. Even if I hadn't been so shaky, I'd still have stayed in their arms like this as long as I could.

"What if Harry would be in danger, even if Anita wasn't with him?" Nathaniel asked softly, his voice vibrating against my shoulder.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

Nathaniel took his hands off my waist and backed away from me. He met my glare with one of his own, but I could see how much it was costing him. "Harry's Damian's grandson, he's under your protection, Anita. What if the Master in London gets upset that Harry didn't have permission to go through London? If he's alone, he might be in trouble."

"I can't let that happen!" I exclaimed, turning back to Jean-Claude. "I promised Harry that I would protect him, if this is a possibility--"

Jean-Claude shushed me. Surprisingly, at least to me, I let him. "It is unlikely, ma petite, for this to happen." He looked down at me for a long moment. "However, if this is what you wish, to take Harry to England at the end of the month, I will do what I can to help you." Reluctantly, Jean-Claude gave me one final kiss, then stepped away. "I have work to do," he said. "I will begin negotiations, but I will not agree to anything until after I have spoken with you. I should have some answers in a few days."

"Thank you," I said. I wanted to say more, that I loved him and that him telling me that he would help me ensure Harry's safety as much as we could meant more to me than any gift of jewels or flowers, but it was too much, and the words stuck in my throat

I noticed that the top button in his shirt was undone, and it reminded me of how I had called him so frantically, earlier that night.

"Thanks for coming, you know, to the graveyard," I said a bit awkwardly.

Jean-Claude gave me a solemn look. "You know I will come whenever, or wherever, you call me," he said.

"I know, but I will want to say thank you for that, too," I told him, blushing a little.

He smiled wryly as he walked out of the room, before I remembered that I had wanted to ask him why Asher had vanished so suddenly tonight. I guess I'd have to figure it out another time.

Micah rose to his feet and walked over to me, stopping just out of reach. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked.

I wrapped my arms around myself and nodded, although I was feeling far from certain. "It's just a trip across an ocean to a country I've never been to. Should be fun."

"It's a long plane ride," Micah said.

"I know that!" I snapped. With jerky motions, I undid my belt and slid it out of the loops on my jeans, to remove my shoulder holster. I draped the holster on the top of the dresser, then slipped the clip out of my gun. I still had half a clip of bullets left.

Looking at that half-empty clip, a shiver ran over my whole body. These bullets wouldn't have been enough against those ghouls tonight. Jean-Claude and Asher wouldn't have made it in time. If Harry hadn't been there, hadn't been able to make fire out of thin air with his magic, I'd be dead.

There had been a lot of moments in the last couple of weeks where if Harry hadn't been there to save me, I'd be dead. With Bellatrix, twice, then with the Aurors in the police station, then tonight. I'd always prided myself on being self-sufficient, able to take care of myself, no matter the danger. How was it that this boy came along and threw all of that into disarray?

Micah wrapped his arms around me, hugging me from behind, as I shivered. Then Nathaniel joined him. They were both so warm, but there was a tiny part of me that I didn't think would ever get warm. I'd forgotten that there were things that I couldn't protect myself from, and that scared me.

The shaking gradually abated, even if the fears didn't. It took me a while, but I managed to make myself slide gently out of their grasp. Nathaniel looked so lost, uncertain, that I held out my hand to him.

He took my hand and rubbed it against his cheek, so relieved. "I'm sorry I brought that thing about Harry up with Jean-Claude, before I mentioned it to you," he said.

"It's okay," I said. I couldn't get mad at him, not when he looked so happy that I wasn't angry. "Why did you think of that, anyway?"

He looked down and didn't respond.

This had to be about the thing that Harry wasn't telling me, I realized. It was on the tip of my tongue to order Nathaniel to tell me what was going on, but I swallowed the words I wanted to say, and instead said, "Are you going to be okay?"

Nathaniel nodded. "Maybe I should go see how Harry's doing?" he asked.

I blinked, trying to not let the hurt show. Nathaniel was supposed to be seeing how I was doing, not Harry. I was his Nimir-Ra, and Harry...

Harry was Nathaniel's friend, and connected to Nathaniel through Damian's family link, I told myself sternly. Harry had been through a lot tonight and he might want a friend to make sure he was fine. "That's a good idea," I told Nathaniel.

Nathaniel gave my hand a final squeeze. "I'll be back in a little bit," he promised.

I made myself smile as he left the room. As soon as he closed the door, the smile dropped.

Micah looked at me. "What?" I snapped at him, my irritation at myself seeping into my voice.

"Is there anything I can do for you?" he asked.

"What do you mean?"

He pressed his lips together, an uncharacteristic display of nervousness. "That's a very good question." He raked his fingers through his hair in frustration and turned away from me. "Is there ever anything I can do?"

"Micah..." I put my hand on his shoulder. The muscles under my fingers were rock-hard with tension. "Micah, what are you talking about?"

He dropped his arms and looked over his shoulder at me. His eyes were almost alien, and I didn't have any idea how to help him. "I'm never the one to save you," he finally said. "I've never been the one to save you."

I didn't know what to say. My brain wasn't sure how to process this, but my beast did. I hugged Micah, as hard as I could. Micah returned the embrace, holding his strength in check to avoid crushing my ribs. My beast rumbled inside of me, reaching out to Micah. She offered the comfort that I wasn't sure how to give. Somehow, in the middle of it all, my tension began to ease along with Micah's, as our beasts brushed past each other in the shells of our bodies.

Micah's hands were stoking down my back, not letting me go. It took me two tries to speak. "That's the first time we've done that since what happened in the woods."

"Yeah, it is." Micah licked my neck, then he gently grasped my throat in his teeth. Not hard enough to leave a mark, but enough to make me tremble.

I ran my fingers through his hair, resting against him. I didn't want to move, to destroy this moment, but there was something I needed to say. "You don't have to save me," I whispered.

Micah sighed. "You don't understand," he said sadly.

Part of me wanted to get angry, or annoyed, but my beast was still too lazy to let me get all worked up. "Is this a guy thing?"

"No." Micah kissed along my neck, turning my thoughts to the ardeur in spite of myself. "I told myself that I wasn't going to get like this, but sometimes I just want to keep you safe. But I never can."

I closed my eyes and rested my head on Micah's shoulder. "I keep myself safe, you know that," I said, even as my thoughts from a few minutes before came back to me. What I had said wasn't true, and I knew it.

"But what happens when that's not enough?" Micah whispered. "What happens then?"

I didn't have an answer for him.

~~~~~~~~~~~


Harry sat on the back steps, staring up at the stars. The air was still and sweltering, and even the glass of ice water at his side wasn't helping him to cool down.

He looked down at the wand he held in his fingers. One flick of his wand, and he could make a little bubble of cool air around himself. Only two words. Who would know?

It's just the opposite of the words I used on the ghoul, he thought. Cool breeze instead of fire. The image of the burning ghoul came back to Harry, and he clenched his wand tight. He hadn't wanted to burn the ghoul, he really hadn't, but when it leaped at him and Anita, he hadn't thought. He just acted.

Just like with Quirrell. He hadn't ever really thought about Professor Quirrell's death. He had known he had killed Quirrell, or rather that his actions killed the man, as being possessed by Voldemort made Harry's touch deadly to Quirrell. The death didn't bother him; at the time he didn't have a choice. Voldemort couldn't get his hands on the Philosopher's Stone, no matter what.

Is this how Voldemort started? By thinking that one death was excusable? Harry wondered. He kills everything in his way now, maybe it started like the thing with the ghouls. One death, three deaths, what's the difference in the end?

If Harry didn't really care about Quirrell's death, would he care about the next one? Like Bellatrix? he realized, going cold. She was dead because of Harry, and he didn't really care about her death, either. If she was dead, then Sirius's death was avenged, and Anita was alive, and Bellatrix would never threaten anyone Harry cared about, ever again.

Does Voldemort think the same way about Dumbledore and me? Harry felt his insides churn. Maybe he does. Maybe we're just the same.

Sickened, Harry wrote his name in flaming letters in the air. Harry James Potter sat midair, taunting him. The 16-year-old Tom Riddle in Voldemort's old diary, the one that had possessed Ginny Weasley in her first year at Hogwarts, he had done the same thing, before showing Harry how the letters of his name changed to read, I am Lord Voldemort.

Harry stared at the letters of his name. Instead of trying to rearrange his name, Harry found himself looking at his middle name. James.

What would my dad have done if he ever found out that mum's dad was a vampire? Harry thought. Would he have done what Hermione said? Hated her because of it?

Since Harry had seen Snape's memory of being taunted by James and Sirius in the pensive, in his fifth year, he had often tried to reconcile that image of his father with what everyone said about James. Hagrid had said he was a good man, and Remus said the same thing. Dumbledore said so, too. None of them really had any reason to lie about it. Was I that bad when I was fifteen? I don't think so. But people change, I guess. Harry desperately wanted to believe that his dad would have dismissed all that vampire kid stuff as nonsense, when it came to Lily. Maybe he would have. Could he just have stopped loving her because of her parentage?

So wrapped up in his thoughts, Harry didn't hear Nathaniel until the wereleopard sat beside him on the step. "Neat trick," Nathaniel said, pointing at the flaming letters.

"Yeah." Harry blinked and looked away from the letters, now almost burned into his retinas. "I was just... I don't know."

Nathaniel accepted that without comment, as he always did. As Harry waved the letters into nothingness, Nathaniel said, "Anita is working out how to get you back to England."

"If I'm a werewolf, you mean?" Harry asked, turning to look at Nathaniel. The other man met Harry's gaze steadily, which was a bit strange for the submissive man.

"No." Nathaniel leaned against the railing. "She thinks you might get into trouble if you go back on your own, so she asked Jean-Claude to get permission to go with you, from the Master of London."

"I don't need her to come with me," Harry protested. "I can get back on my own."

Nathaniel looked up at the sky. "She's still going to do it, in case you need help. She thinks that you might have Death Eaters after you, if you go back alone. So even thought it might be dangerous, and even though she hates to fly, she's still going."

"Why would it be dangerous?" Harry asked.

"Because putting the human servant in another Master's territory is always dangerous," Nathaniel said. There was the beginning of a fine edge of anger in Nathaniel's voice, that Harry had never heard before. "She knows that, but even if it's dangerous, she'll still go to protect you."

"She doesn't need to protect me!" Harry said sharply. "She shouldn't be putting herself in a situation like that!"

Nathaniel stood. "Especially if your death solves everything?" he said. Harry whipped his head around to stare at his friend. "You should tell her," Nathaniel said, walking towards the house. "If she's going to put herself in danger, all of us in danger, because of you, then you should tell her everything."

He shut the door behind him, leaving a stunned Harry on the step. Nathaniel had never said anything like that before to Harry.

Harry looked back at the dark space where he had written his name in burning letters. How could he tell Anita that he might have to die, in order to stop Voldemort? Would she listen?

Did he even want her to believe him?

~*~


The next morning they were back in the jeep, driving for the police station again. Harry hoped that this trip to the RPIT headquarters wouldn't end in a duel with Aurors, but just in case, his wand was within easy reach.

"Did you and Nathaniel get into a fight last night?" Anita asked. Harry stiffened, but didn't look at her.

"No."

When it became clear that Harry didn't have anything else to add, Anita said, "Then why was he avoiding you all morning?"

Harry turned around at last. "What are you talking about?" he demanded. "Nathaniel wasn't avoiding me."

"He does the same thing to me when I've pissed him off," Anita said. "He's still around, but he doesn't go out of his way to spend a lot of time with me."

Harry thought frantically. Nathaniel had been there during breakfast, but afterward he had just vanished. In the past few days, Harry and Nathaniel usually cleaned up the kitchen together, but that morning Micah had done it by himself.

"Look, I'm sorry I brought it up," Anita said awkwardly. "It's just, you two seemed to be getting along really great."

Harry closed his eyes. He had thought Nathaniel was busy with something else after breakfast, and didn't have the time to spend hanging around with Harry. This had to be about Harry's refusal to tell Anita about the prophecy. What else could it be?

"Are you thinking of going over to England with me?" Harry asked suddenly. Nathaniel might have misunderstood the dangers to Anita in the trip, that had to be it.

"Did Nathaniel tell you that?" Anita asked, looking rather uncomfortable. "As a matter of fact, yes, I am."

"Why? You don't need to go with me, I'll be fine."

"Why do you always try to do everything yourself?" Anita demanded as she drove the jeep into the police station parking lot. "It's going to be the day after a full moon, and if you are really going to be a werewolf, then you might freak out and put other people in danger, so I'm coming along."

"Is that the reason?" Harry asked indignantly. "Because I might start eating people on the plane?"

Anita turned off the car and yanked her keys out of the ignition. "As a matter of fact, it's not!" She got out of the car and slammed the door, leaving Harry to scramble after her.

He caught up with her halfway across the parking lot. "If that's not it, then what?" he demanded. "Is this because I'm still a kid?" He flung the words at her.

Anita whirled around, her hair flying around her face. "From what you've told me, half the people in your world seem to have it in for you! There is nothing wrong with having someone else around to watch your back!" she exclaimed, her words snapping in anger.

Frustration and anger warred within Harry's chest, and he took a few steps back. "Will you be in danger if you go?" he asked.

Anita shook her head. "This isn't about--"

"Will you?"

Anita put her hands on her hips. "Jean-Claude has everything under control," she said. "Give him a few days, and it'll be all settled."

"That was a yes," Harry said. Why was she intent on doing something so dangerous? "You don't--"

"Shut up," Anita interrupted. "This is how it's going to be. I'm taking you to England and putting you on that damned train to your stupid school, where the devious bastard you call your headmaster swears you'll be safe."

"But the Death Eaters--"

"Why are you so dead set against me coming with you?" Anita demanded. "What the hell is wrong with having a little backup in a dangerous situation?"

"Because they need you here!" Harry shouted. They were drawing some curious looks from passers-by, but Harry didn't care. "What if you get hurt? It'll hurt Damian and Nathaniel, and Jean-Claude and Richard and everybody!"

Anita closed the distance between them, so close that Harry could make out the tiny flecks of light brown, almost bronze, in her dark eyes. "This is not about them, and you know it," she said sharply. "If you don't want me to go with you, just fucking say so and don't go hiding behind them."

He couldn't keep it in any longer. "And what if I'm supposed to die anyway?" Harry asked. His fists were clenched at his sides so tightly that he felt like he might break the bones in his hands. "Would that change your mind?


Anita's eyes grew wide. "I thought we'd been over--"

"What if I was wrong?" Harry persisted. His heart was pounding, but he had to ask. He had to know. "What if I have to die for Voldemort to die? Will that change your mind about protecting me?"

"What do you mean?" Anita asked, her anger fading slightly to confusion. "Is this about that prophecy?"

Harry nodded. In spite of the hot day, he felt chilled. "We were talking about it, and Nathaniel-- I mean..."

Anita brushed her hair out of her face. "Stop trying to cover for Nathaniel and just tell me," she demanded.

Harry took a deep breath. He wasn't able to look at Anita, and concentrated very hard on the old car parked about ten yards away. "What if I have to die before Voldemort can die? What if the only way to stop him is for me to be dead?"

Anita didn't say anything. Harry kept staring at the car. She knows now, he thought. What is she going to do? What if she thinks I'm too much of a danger to have around?

When Harry couldn't stand the silence any longer, he said, "Maybe we should go inside."

"Just a second."

Harry closed his eyes. This was it.

"Has anyone told you that you're a real idiot?"

Well, that was not what he was expecting. "What?" he exclaimed, turning around.

He had thought Anita was mad. He was wrong. She was furious. "There is no way in hell that you need to die to kill Voldemort," she said in a cold voice. "Do you understand?"

"But the prophecy--"

"Fuck the prophecy. Fuck everyone who's ever told you that it means anything," Anita said icily. "There is no God-damned way that you need to die so someone else will die too. That's the biggest load of crap I've ever heard."

Harry shook his head so hard he almost dislodged his glasses. "Then what the hell am I going to do, if trying to kill him doesn't work?" he demanded quietly, trying to avoid attracting the attention of any nearby policemen.

"Gee, I don't know, how about finding another way?" Anita said sarcastically. "There have to be other ways, other than slitting your own fucking throat!"

"Voldemort can live without a body, he'd done it before," Harry said.

"You told me, remember?" Anita said. "That first night. There have to be other magical ways to get rid of a disembodied spirit."

"What if I can't find a way to do that?" Harry asked. It was hopeless, he thought, no matter what Anita thought.

He saw the cold expression on her face, and shivered in spite of himself. "Then I find a way," she said.

~*~


"Inferi."

"What?"

"Inferi," Tammy Reynolds repeated. She sat back in her desk chair. "Do you know what those are?" she asked Anita.

"No clue." The necromancer looked at Harry. "You?"

Harry frowned. "We went over them, last year," he said. "They're like zombies, but not the same."

"They are pretty mindless," Tammy supplied. "Mute, with nothing of their personalities left. They're just animated corpses that do what they are told."

"Sounds horrible, but what does that have to do with anything?" Anita asked.

Tammy pushed a folder across the desk. "We did a little digging. Nigel Spencer was married one year after he settled in St. Louis, to a woman named Elaine Jones. She died a couple of years ago."

Anita opened the folder, and swore under her breath. "She was buried at the same cemetery as the ghoul attack last night."

"Yes," Tammy said. "Lt. Storr got a exhumation order late last night. They dug the coffin up as soon as day broke."

"What does that have to do with Inferi?" Harry asked.

Tammy gave him a look. "The coffin was empty."

"More than that," Anita said. She dumped a handful of polariods on Tammy's desk and sorted through them. Harry leaned forward to watch. "Look at this. Something dug its way out of the coffin, look at these marks." She sounded nauseated. Harry didn't blame her. Being stuck under six feet of dirt, in a tiny box...

"In the dirt above the coffin, the backhoe found this," Tammy said, pointing to one of the polaroids. Both Anita and Harry crowded close. There was the image of weird-looking metal amulet, the visible engravings caked with dirt. "It's a medallion, textbook perfect, used for raising an Inferius."

"Did whoever killed Mr. Spencer raise his wife as an Inferius?" Harry asked, careful to pretend that he had no idea of the Death Eater's identity.

"Either that, or he tried to do it himself," Anita said, looking at other photographs. "Do we know what happened to the corpse of Elaine Spencer?"

"No," Tammy said. "All I do know is that Inferi never turn into ghouls."

"But they might be the catalyst to making the ghouls," Anita mused. She shifted around in her chair. "Don't suppose our friends downstairs have anything to say about this?"

It took Harry a moment to realize that Anita was speaking about the two Aurors, still in police custody.

"We're not going to ask them," Tammy said shortly. "Why do you suppose that the ghouls attacked you two in the graveyard? They seldom attack humans, and there have to have been hundreds of people through there in the last year alone."

"That might point to a recent event." Anita shook her head. "I'll go back to our office, see if there is any recent zombie raisings in this graveyard that might mean something."

"We'll keep looking for Mrs. Spencer's body," Tammy said. "At the very least, there's the grave desecration charge to worry about." She shuffled through another pile of paper on her desk. "I've got your reports about last night, and I think that's all I need right now. If I have to call you later, are you around?"

"Sure thing," Anita said as she stood. "I've got to work tonight, but if you need anything, call. I want to figure out about these ghouls as much as you do."

Tammy gathered the pictures back up and shoved the folder to the side of her desk. "I'll talk to you later," she said, getting up and walking toward the back of the office.

Anita turned and headed toward the exit, Harry tagging along after her. "Do you think that Bellatrix did something to raise the ghouls?" he asked as they hit the stairs.

"I have no idea," Anita said, sounding very annoyed. "I've never heard of these Inferi things before, and it's pissing me off."

"Really?" Harry said dryly, unable to help himself. Anita glared at him. "Sorry."

"No, you're not." Anita waved at the policeman at the front desk as she headed around the metal detectors. She waited while Harry signed out in the guest book. "What do you want to do now?"

"I get to choose?"

"Well, not really," Anita conceded as they left the building. "I need to go to the office, and I'm sure Jean-Claude will need to talk to me at some point. Plus, I need to schedule a few shooting lessons for you this week."

"Really?" Harry asked. "With a real gun? Won't that be dangerous?" Anita's gun was the first he had ever seen. He didn't even want to hazard a guess how he'd find one back in England.

"A gun's no more dangerous than the person holding it," Anita said. "As long as that person knows what she or he is doing. It's best to be prepared, right?"

"I guess." Harry glanced at where Anita's jacket hid her shoulder holster. "But what if--"

"Harry," Anita stopped him. "What I said before, about finding another way to kill Voldemort. I meant that. I'm not letting you walk out of here without a fighting chance of surviving the year."

"Why not?"

He expected some answer about him being Damian's grandson, or about how he was probably going to be part of the wolf pack, but Anita surprised him. "You're a good person, Harry. Everyone deserves a fighting chance, and it's about time that you got yours."

Harry really wasn't sure what to make of her answer.

...tbc

Date: 2005-10-23 04:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emeraldswan.livejournal.com
I always get so wrapped up in reading this story that, when I get to the end, I have this moment of wondering why the hell I can't just turn the page and get more. Ya know, like a really good book.

What a wonderful present! (And a fantastic chapter, too!)

Smiles, Emmy

Date: 2005-10-23 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
*g* thanks. I've decided to spend my weekends on the big epics.... so far, working out okay. Plus, the plot moves along around all this "character" stuff. Fun times, all around.

Again, happy birthday.

Date: 2005-10-23 04:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emeraldswan.livejournal.com
Thank you!

So, it's going to be weekends spent working on your ongoing works in progress, with a bunch of drabble writing (how many do you have to write?) during the week? That actually sounds like a good plan. Maybe I should give it a shot. :D

Date: 2005-10-23 04:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
That's the theory.
Let's see. I have 97 Dawn crossover ficlettes, 53 Anita Blake fanfic100 ficlettes, and 17 ficlette fiasco ficlettes to go.

97
+53
+17
===
167

Oh my. I best get cracking.

Date: 2005-10-23 04:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sabriel-0405.livejournal.com
Wonderful as always. I loved the interactions between Anita, Jean-Claude, Nathaniel and Micah as well as those between Harry and Nathaniel. I love how comfortable Nathaniel is around Harry, enough to be angry with him and show it. Harry is growing up but he is still young. Despite all that has happened, he doesn't have the range of experience to think there might be another way. Of course, Anita has the tendency to think that if you can shoot it, that is the other way. But she's willing to explore options!

I particularly liked Micah's comment about never being the one to save her. I cannot imagine he doesn't feel that way on daily basis.

Date: 2005-10-23 04:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I love how comfortable Nathaniel is around Harry, enough to be angry with him and show it.

I'm glad this came across. As of ID, Nathaniel started getting comfortable enough around Anita to express displeasure, something the Nathaniel of NiC wouldn't have done. That's more his own growth than anything else. With Harry, someone who's younger but still more "alpha," it's telling that Nathaniel will retain this strength.

I particularly liked Micah's comment about never being the one to save her. I cannot imagine he doesn't feel that way on daily basis.

I so cannot wait for the Micah book. I do hope that LKH addresses this part of their relationship in that book.

Date: 2005-10-23 04:58 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Awesome...Absolutely Tigger-iffic.

For some reason, I can't tell now, it's too late, this chapter read kind of dreamily and very thoughtfully. Not much action, some introspection and a lot of dialogue and character interaction.

then slipped the clip out of my gun. I still had half a clip of bullets left.

Wouldn't there still be a bullet in the chamber if she's been shooting? She should take that one out as well. Unless she took it out earlier so as to not be toting a fully loaded gun.

And I absolutlely love this line:

"Fuck the prophecy. Fuck everyone who's ever told you that it means anything," Anita said. "There is no God-damned way that you need to die so someone else will die too. That's the biggest load of crap I've ever heard."

It's just so like ANGRY-ANITA. but that 'Anita said'...is she very emotional, is she yelling, is she speaking with quiet intensity, viciousness...'Anita said' seems to fall kinda flat surrounded by all that profanity and strong opinion.

And, of course with all the hints in the form of drabbles we've been given, it is completely inevitable that Anita will be flying off to England with Harry...but will they take a plane (con terrified Anita) or somehow get access to some classic wizard transportation? Or something completely different?

I can't wait to find out. Though you say you still must decide what happens in the intervening chapters. Whatever you decide to write will ofcourse be met with great joy and barely any criticism, 'cause, o'course, we canna find a thing that's wrong except for easily correctible or explained nitpicks.

And so, with a rather large yawn, I bid you good-night.

E.A.V.

ps-I strongly recomend Terry Pratchet's Going Postal...Definately deserves ALL of the hype. If you've already read it, well, maybe you can recomend me the rest of his books? He's only written half a million of them!

Date: 2005-10-23 07:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I don't know anything about gun, but I figure Anita won't leave a round in the chamber if she can avoid it (safety?).

Thanks for your comments :)

Date: 2005-10-23 06:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catherinecookmn.livejournal.com
Lovely, lovely, lovely!

Harry, here's a clue: If you're worried that you're turning into a bad person, you're not a bad person. Bad people don't have consciences. (I think that Anita may be helping him figure this out.)

Now, what will Nathaniel do, when he finds out that Anita now knows? Will he still be angry at Harry for endangering Anita? Will Anita knock Nathaniel's block off for making Harry think he has to off himself so that Anita is safe? (Or will she invite Richard and Sylvie over to do it for her? I'm sure that Richard really wouldn't like the idea of his vargamour dying because of Nathaniel.)

Date: 2005-10-23 07:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Anita's going through the same thing, the "am I turning into a sociopath?" part of her life.

Anita and Nathaniel... well, they have some stuff to talk about as well. Also, Will Anita knock Nathaniel's block off for making Harry think he has to off himself so that Anita is safe? -- All Anita knows is that Harry and Nathaniel had a conversation. She didn't get the gritty details about it. Which, you know, is probably for the best for everyone involved.

Man. Richard v. Nathaniel. What a really bad idea.

Date: 2005-10-23 07:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catherinecookmn.livejournal.com
Man. Richard v. Nathaniel. What a really bad idea

Yeah. At the time of NiC, I'd have put my money on Richard. But now, with Assertive!Wise!Nathaniel making an appearance (spoiler font for first chappies of Danse Macabre to follow)......wow.

Date: 2005-10-23 10:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
That was an awesome thing. He's such a Slytherin (PS take the new poll! (here:http://www.livejournal.com/users/mhalachaiswords/112038.html))

Date: 2005-10-23 06:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lishel_fracrium.livejournal.com
guh.. Have I ever told you that you are a goddess? well I'm saying it now. *g* love this fic so much. thank you for updating.

Date: 2005-10-23 07:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
*g* As always, I'm glad you like it. (What was the "guh" for?)

Date: 2005-10-23 07:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lishel_fracrium.livejournal.com
you killed me so I had to come back to lige and think of what to say it took awhile. but it's a very good thing. *g*

Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-23 06:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laney-1974.livejournal.com
Talk about making my afternoon. I come home from work and find this! Wonderful, wonderful part. You know, you write Anita better than LKH.

Re: Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-23 07:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I do what I can.

You know, you write Anita better than LKH.
I'm curious about this. In what way, do you think? (I don't think I do... I'm just trying to match the characterization in the books... but I've been told I can be humble. Shows what they know)

Re: Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-23 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catherinecookmn.livejournal.com
I think it's because you seem to take the characters a bit more seriously than does LKH. Or it's just that you're a better -- ahem -- judge of character. ;-)

Re: Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-23 10:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
This could take us into the whole "sex as un/necessary to the plot" discussion. I'm deliberatly avoiding the sex in Inevitable because I din't need it to tell this story, and as such had to depend more on the action to move the plot along. In the more recent books, LKH has been using sex as necessary to the plot... which I don't disagree with, but it does cast a different tone to the story.

Or it's just that you're a better -- ahem -- judge of character. ;-)
*groan*

Re: Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-25 09:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laney-1974.livejournal.com
I like that there's no sex in this story. As you know, I've given up on Anita Blake... this is as close to the series as I'll ever get.

Re: Squee!!!

Date: 2005-10-25 09:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laney-1974.livejournal.com
Absolutely. No one is sacrificed just to make Anita look good. Which is my pet hate.

Date: 2005-10-23 06:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] watcher457.livejournal.com
*sighs* happiness is an update of inevitable.

Date: 2005-10-23 07:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cissasghost.livejournal.com
Absolutely awesome as always - he may not have been a particularly major part of this chapter, but I love how you're developing Nathaniel's character. He's growing, but in a way that seems subtle and real and just like he's becoming more himself. It's good. That line that goes 'Nathaniel had never said anything like that to Harry before' had me thinking 'Nathaniel has never said anything like that to ANYONE before!' - but in a good, "yay, Nate!" sort of way, not like it was OOC at all. And I'm tired, and this may be slightly less coherent than I'd like, but in general, good chapter, everyone's voice is perfect, keep up the good work, etc. ;)

-Sonya

Date: 2005-10-23 07:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Well, you know me and how much I love Nathaniel. He can't protect Anita like JC or Micah could, so he has to go about in a more sneaky (dare I say Slytherin?) sort of way.

Hrm. Nathaniel in Slytherin. I wonder what houses the others would be in....

Date: 2005-10-23 07:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cissasghost.livejournal.com
Nathaniel is SO Slytherin. Micah too, I think. Hrmm, I'm sensing a theme here with Anita's men .. though I think Richard's a Gryffindor, and JC's somewhere between Slytherin and Gryffindor .. probably Slytherin 'cause that's where he'd choose to go. Asher . . hrmm . . very tough one, though I think I might say Hufflepuff. Jason's . . hrmm . . I'm tempted to say Ravenclaw, though I'm not firmly decided on it. Damian's a Gryff, Larry's a Gryff, Willie's a 'Puff, Sylvie's a Slyth . .

. . I want to put a lot of these guys in two houses. Like, JC and Sylvie are both sorta Slythindor. Ambitious, any means to achieve their ends, check. But occasionally brave to the point of stupid, overdeveloped sense of responsibility? Also check.

-Sonya

Date: 2005-10-23 10:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I agree with you totally on everyone but Asher and Jason, but I'm not sure why I wouldn't put Jason in Raveclaw or Asher in Hufflepuff. It makes sense, you know, but still... Can I put Jason in Huffleclaw?

This is just too much fun to keep to comments. I'm making a poll about this!

Date: 2005-10-23 01:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] uten.livejournal.com
My first thought after this chapter, apart from the two usual *grin*, is that I wonder exactly how mad Anita is going to be at Nathaniel for even making Harry think he might have to die when everyone (as far as I know) Anita knew he had never thought that about the prophecy in quite that way before. I look forward to seeing what happens when they get home, especially since Anita seems to rather volatile about any possible thought that Harry might die... Since you ruined my first thought and said they don't end up in bed together eventually (although I do think the amount of tension you are putting the pair through is enough to go above what Anita went through before relenting and shagging Nathaniel) I find my self wondering if we are going to find out the reasons for Anita's possessiveness and protectiveness of Harry, because the reasons, like him becoming vargamour, don't seem to account for tha much, and she doesn't treat him like a child either, so it's not that.. So the big question now, especially given her rather large explosion of anger, is what is tying her to Harry if it's not pity, pack or possessiveness???

A very nice chapter character wise, and I like the question you raised about Asher with regards to Harry. I know it has to be something new, because Julianna was burnt as a witch, so I look forward to dinding out what his problem with Harry is. The extra character intereaction went well, and you are also showing us that regardless of what the English or American Aurors like to think, quite a great deal is known about their hidden ways, if you know where to look, otherwise, how would Tammy know about Inferi, and I'm now looking forward to an Inferi attack, unless Inferi can control ghouls - which would be wierd since Inferi seem to be slower and less intelligent..

I rambled again. *grin*

Date: 2005-10-23 09:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Well, at this point, all Anita knows is that Harry and Nathaniel were talking about something or other over the prophecy, not what Nate told Harry the previous night. Harry's not going to tell her, and god knows Nate's not going to do anything to get himself into Anita's bad books.

Anita sees herself in Harry, only minus the crazy evil magical vendetta. A family life where he wasn't wanted, powerful magic, putting himself in harm's way for others, and all that jazz.

The answer on Asher is set for about 4 chapters, at the current pace :)

Date: 2005-10-24 04:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] uten.livejournal.com
Anita sees herself in Harry, only minus the crazy evil magical vendetta. A family life where he wasn't wanted, powerful magic, putting himself in harm's way for others, and all that jazz.

Interesting way of putting it.. Because Edward saw himself in Anita, before the crazy pathological bit.

Your phrasing, and Anita's teaching makes me wonder if it will make Harry cross the line, and given the fact he didn't wish to kill the ghoul, but did, shows that he needs too, and that the line is something he seems to be walking on.

The answer on Asher is set for about 4 chapters, at the current pace :)

Argh.. The wait!!! *grin* I'll spend half the time passed out anyway, so it's not as long as a wait for me. You can tell passing out is getting old when I can joke about it. I got taken to the State Marching Band finals and watched one of the four groups, did a little shopping, and apart from two hours early this morning, have spent the time either out of it, or completely unconcious. That's twice this week a whole day has been devoted to being 'elsewhere'..

As for Asher, it just occured to me he looked at the burnt corpse, then seemed to withdraw - maybe it is a reminder of Julianna. I look forward to finding out what it is.

I do have one new question I'm sure has been asked a million times.. Are you going to leave Harry single?

Date: 2005-10-24 04:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Passing out? Eepers.

as for your new question, the answer is both yes and no.

And in case you plan to kill me with that answer, then the answer is more yes than no. And in further response, keep in mind that I strive to do a better job of canon pairings than the authors themselves. So, um, no Harry/Draco. Or Harry/Remus. That one just squicks me.

Date: 2005-10-24 03:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] uten.livejournal.com
Passing out? Eepers.

Sadly, it's something I'm used to. Apart from Progresssive Neuropathy, they are stuck on a diagnosis. Which means if it's a bad form of Neuropathy, my life span is shortened to who knows. Originally, they weren't getting diagnosable symptoms, except in EMGs (I think - with the probes and needles - I mix them up 'cause I've had ECGs, EKGs and EMGs), then in the muscle biopsy, and now they 'may' have seen something in my MRI six months ago. I have a full set again tomorrow to see if what they saw has changed, or if there are new signs of a specific disease. I have had two days in the last five where I've slept for 20-24 hours, only being woken up to take my meds. I'm hoping they find something, because this not knowing if I'm slowly dying really sucks. And it's been four years.

as for your new question, the answer is both yes and no.

And in case you plan to kill me with that answer, then the answer is more yes than no. And in further response, keep in mind that I strive to do a better job of canon pairings than the authors themselves. So, um, no Harry/Draco. Or Harry/Remus. That one just squicks me.


Some people are so unkind. *pouts* As long as the canon pairing doesn't involve Ginny, I won't complain. And the only reason I will now is all the other louts claiming canon pairing because they went out... even though they broke up (that relationship is the worst written in the book - one page intro, one page outro and it seems like it got added cause the fans wanted it). Canon for me means Harry is straight, although if he does become a wolf, or have a beast inside him, as at the very least it seems, sexuality lines can bleed, especially in the AB universe. After all, look how much Anita has changed because of her beast and the arduer. It also occurs to me that by relating Damien and Harry, you could have Harry gain the Arduer once he becomes a preternatural creature. Heh, I come up with notions ever time I type something. I like the fact that you have said more yes than no, as that means he either gets an on again, off again partner, or he has several, or he breaks up and gets a new partner. None of the cheesy moping around - which would be out of character since the only thing Harry has REALLY moped about so far is Nathaniel's interpretation of the prophecy.

As for Harry/Remus... EWWWWWWW.. I hate that and Harry/Sirius the most as they never make any form of sense.. Harry/Draco I have seen written well once or twice, but it's rare. I love to read the Veela stories for a good laugh. *grin* Speaking of Veela, do you often have your ideas sprout fully formed in the middle of the night.. I seem to lately, especially since I'm trying to pull the prologue off as Edward still being Edward. I know how I want it to look and read, but am sucking at writing it - I had to pick Herry being Edward when he is the character I write worst.. Any ideas on how to get over that? I'm re-reading the stories, and am almost at OB, so that will help, but I need to write Edward.. *sighs* maybe Drabbles, but I've never really read that style. *shrugs* I may go with the new post-war fic idea I had and work on multiple stories at once. I was trying to work on just one with this fic, and it's not working. I've never had a problem before, but then, I've never written stories one at a time. If I write the fic that has Veela as a major theme, that might help too. What works for you when you get stuck on the actual writing of what you can see in your head?? Any advice would help since I want to start releasing this and two other fics now..

Date: 2005-10-25 07:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope they figure out what it is soon... eepers.

Everything will sort itself out in time, re Harry's potential relationship, I promise :)

Date: 2005-10-23 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mefeather.livejournal.com
*bounce* *bounce* Oh, so happy with this new chapter. Thanks! I really like the Nathaniel and Harry interaction.

Date: 2005-10-23 06:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Yeah, I like them too. Nathaniel's never really had a friend before (Anita so does not count) so he's really not sure what he's doing. And Nathaniel is Harry's first "grown-up" friend. All of this leads to potential bumps on the trail.

Date: 2005-10-23 06:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] penyn-1600.livejournal.com
Is Anita really going to go to London? I don't see why Cristoff would have a problem with Harry, as Harry's destined to get rid of Voldemort, who I would think would be a big pain in any Master of the City's butt. *shrugs* I always love this fic.

Date: 2005-10-23 06:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Master vampires are a royal pain in the ass, mostly just because they can be. Cristoff is going to be a pain because he doesn't like Anita, and because he dislikes anything he can't control. Like Harry.

Glad you like it :)

Date: 2005-10-23 07:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catherinecookmn.livejournal.com
Ah, and there's always the chance that Cristoff may have cast his lot with the Dark Lord, thinking in his arrogant vampy way that he and his crew can handle mere mortals, even if they are silly wand-wavers.

Date: 2005-10-23 09:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
There is that chance.... but the magic eight ball says "very doubtful" :D

Date: 2005-10-24 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catherinecookmn.livejournal.com
Ah, so Cristoff may not like JC, but he's not a friggin' idiot, in other words.

By the way -- Here you go:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/catherinecookmn/12714.html#cutid1

Date: 2005-10-24 03:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] houses7177.livejournal.com
*three cheers*

Finally, that interpretation of the prophecy is out in the open and they can move on. I really liked how Anita handled it, typical no-nonsense Anita, and how Harry is resisting the emo-lure, more or less. Inferi, eh? Definitely intriguing.

Major loves.

Date: 2005-10-24 07:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
I think being around people who are proactivly moving toward solving the problem, rather that just letting Harry stew, is helping him to avoid being all Capslock!Harry of rage. He's trying to act like an adult.

Yes, Inferi. It's all part of my master plan.

For the record...

Date: 2005-11-04 07:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thesoulreaver.livejournal.com
I'm one of your newest biggest fans of this fic. It has spoiled me for all other HP/AB crossovers (not that there are so many to begin with, granted) and my anticipation of the story is such that I check your page multiple times daily to see if by chance you've updated it.

Yes, I can be a bit fanatical when it comes to HP. Toss in a well done AB (which this is) and I'm lost. I have to say I had my doubts, but this reads like the next AB book, which surprises the hell out of me. Didn't think anyone could really get that right, with so many clashing personality types (in AB alone!). So easy to let secondary characters get lost in the background and become so very OOC (a fault in many crossover writers), and that's what seperates an ok fanfic writer and a really great writer in my book.

The fact you keep Anita's parts in first person and Harry's in third person is a stroke of brilliance.

I only wished I knew more people who read the AB series so they could truly appreciate this crossover for how wonderful it is. Not that it will stop me from reccing it, but only a good fan of both series would really appreciate it as they should.

Brilliant work. I usually don't carry on like this (makes me sound far too much like a 13 year old fangirl when I do) but when I come across stories that validate the far-to-many hours I spend reading fanfiction, I just can't help myself. Can't wait to read more.

Re: For the record...

Date: 2005-11-04 03:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mhalachaiswords.livejournal.com
Thank you very much! It's always nice to know people are enjoying the story. There is a sad lack of good AB fic in the world, and I do enjoy writing it.

I think it's possible to tell a story in the AB world with all its many characters -- I tend to think of it like my own life: I know so many people, and they drift in and out of my life, and it's not that I have to play favourites with them. It's really easy to write the characters, once that's in place.

I should have an update by the end of the weekend. I get time to write today, which has been sadly lacking as of late.

Thanks for commenting :)

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